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I’m 18 years old, I come from a Polish family, I was born in Sweden and I live in Portugal. *MIND BLOW*

I used to play football with boys when I was a little girl, and instead of playing with barbies I climbed trees and explored forests, when I lived in Sweden. I lived in Sweden until I was about 7, then I moved to Portugal (mainly due to allergy reasons, birch trees and stuff in Sweden).

I’ve had ups and downs in life. Last summer I had the worst “down” there could ever be, which changed me, both physically and mentally. 

I was meant to work, for the first time, a summer job, in Sweden with my longest known friend who I have known since I was born. I flew over there with my dad, who was working there for a while, and left mum and my brothers in Portugal for a month (they were coming later).

The first days were ok. I worked with my best friend, and then everything went shit. Long story short, but shit started in my neighborhood and folks were bullying me and my dad. A gang came to my house and robbed us in our face. We were threatened. My dad got fired, a total coincidence. My best friend fell out with his dad and he moved in with his mum who lived in another city. I fell out with my friend, forever. I started getting manipulated by this older man, and I didn’t even notice. It got to the point where he almost raped me.

Anyway, I lost 8 kg really fast, and I didn’t even notice. I was so brainwashed. Thankfully, the rest of my family came, and then we all came back to Portugal. I started school again, and got into a routine. But the damage was done.

I had lost TOO much weight and I was mentally scarred. My period disappeared for 14 months. People started calling me anorexic and saying that I had “changed”. My brothers started saying that I was “different and more serious”.

I’m still recovering now. Physically, I’m at a right weight and I’m healthy now (period back and all). I’ve gained muscle and I eat most of the time really clean. Mentally, it’s a work in progress.

I’ve learnt a lot about health over this past year. I plan to advise people and help people any way possible, as well as posting about my regular life and weight-maintenance with this blog.

I also want to study nanotechnology, and then later on in life I want to do my dream, which is become a film director.

So that’s it, really. 

Yall can ask questions about anything. I most definitely won’t jump out of your PC screen and pixel-bite yo face, so don’t be shy ;)