Seriously, I don’t know. I’m at my UGW, 50kg, about 110 lbs, and… it feels good. I still watch what I eat, but I also have treats, often, they’re always homemade. Like, today I had an icecream scoop with homemade fruit sauce after lunch, and a homemade fresh fig pie slice after dinner. Sure, I walked for about an hour, and biked for 30 minutes and swam for 15, but still, I indulge.

I guess what I’m saying is… don’t fret. Getting to your UGW is possible even with indulgences, just in absolute moderation. I didn’t eat the whole pie, I had a small slice. I didn’t have 10 scoops of icecream, just one small one. Same goes for normal meals.

Believe in yourself. I did, and… it worked!

TO WHOEVER BOTHERS READING MASSIVE TESTAMENTS LIKE THIS:

Ok so today is officially my last day in Portugal (for the next 2 weeks). Don’t worry, I will be back, fo sho. I just need a media break, where I’m going there is just forest and forest with bilberry picking, and plenty of mushrooms, raspberries, strawberries and other things to be picked, as well as hiking and exploring stuff.

I really need this holiday. I need a break from society, to be honest. But when I come back, I’ll be the healthiest (both mentally and physically) that I will ever be, so expect some awesomeness to come out of this blog in two weeks *pretends I’m da bosss*

Oh, and a tip to all those who get constipated *AHEM* whilst travelling: Bring All Bran cereal (you know, those Fiber One stick cereal type of cereals) with you and munch on it, because whenever I travel, I get stoppage for DAYS.

Also, an update of Portugal: It’s effing hot here right now. Literally, there’s a heatwave. When I open the door, I get a wave of hot air in my face, and standing around in the sun makes you dizzy in literally 5 minutes. People on the beach right now are really stupid. This is what they teach us at frigging school, never stay outdoors in really hot weather and/or high UV levels (which are high right now). But NAAAH, the tourists won’t listen.

And guess what, I had the biggest lunch I’ve ever had. First, it was a small portion of spaghetti with homemade tomato sauce, but then it was cheese and crackers and an icecream cone and some fruit. And yall know I’m a sucker for cheese. (We are having guests over so my mum made a mini buffet thing). So just lunch totaled out to about 1500 cals, no joke. But I’m not freaking out. I’m so FULL right now, I can probably only fit in a light salad for dinner, plus I’m taking my dog for one last long brisk walk/jog, since the dog will be staying here in Portugal with our house-sitters.

That is all for now. Today is the last chance to ask random questions, by the way!

Today was a pretty good day! 

I’ve been quite busy lately, started packing already since I’m leaving on Wednesday, and done a lot of housework too. (I vacuumed, ironed, mopped and cleared the house today)

Just thought I’d share my food intake today:

Breakfast

-Fried egg on toast with ketchup and marmite, followed by a crispbread with Brie cheese (I’m a sucker for Brie) (~500)

Lunch

-Meatloaf leftovers with roast potato pieces and salad (~500) followed by icecream (~120) and then lots of grapes (~100) and 2 plums (~40)

Dinner

-Baked mackerel with beetroot salad greek yoghurt and a crispbread (~500) followed by a natural yoghurt (~66)

I also half jogged/brisk walked my dog for 30 minutes and swept around the house.

I don’t know or care if today was a maintenance day, I’m too tired and excited at the same time to care!

So I posted earlier on about me having a mini-splurge day today. Well it couldn’t have been that “mini” since almost 4 hours later I still feel like I’ve just eaten a whole buffet. 

Anyway, I did do some gardening for 1 hour and 30 minutes, burning probably just over 250 cals. I need to go and pick some almonds from the trees in the field, and then I’m going brisk walking with my dog for 30 minutes.

I probably won’t even be hungry when I get back for dinner, it’s already 18:12 here, and besides, I feel so bloated I probably just need a nice walk and cup of tea. 

Just shows you, even if you’re losing weight or maintaining it, nobody is perfect. I mean, I splurged today, but the trick is that I didn’t freak out over it. Yeah, I felt a tiny bit of guilt, but I just put my MP3 on, and raked a ton of leaves and wheelbarrowed all the crap down to the bonfire. 

On an off-note, I’m so excited for Uni. Like, I might be actually studying nanotechnology engineering in Portugal (or whatever the course is called in English), and I’ll be living on my OWN, which allows me to cook whatever I want and workout whenever and however I want. That’s in about 1.5 months from now. I want to at least maintain my weight until then, and THEN I’m going to get so toned, like honestly. We get free gyms in Lisbon (not where I live, sadly) so I’m definitely looking forward to that.

Sorry for the thought-spam. I’m just babbling. Yes, I will shut up and post awesomeness instead.

So I decided to have a cheat day. Mainly because I’ve been mysteriously losing weight, which is almost scaring me now. Like, I was 52 kg, which I thought was just perfect, then I went down to 51 kg, which was ok, but recently for the past 4 days I’ve been around 50 kg (that’s 110 pounds), which “apparently” is underweight. 51 is the minimum.

So my breakfast was normal, Fiber One cereal with some porridge and a slice of papaya. 

Then I had lunch, tiny bit of meatloaf, lots of steamed veggies and a roast potato. 

Then came the cheat meal:

-a gigantic serving of strawberries with 2 scoops of vanilla icecream and lots of chocolate sauce

-2 caramel filled chocolate squares + 1 “fluffy” chocolate square

-2 mini pastry thingies

-1 small slice of coconut/chocolate cake

-LOTS of figs (like, 10-15 fresh off the tree)

All in all, I think that’s enough for today. I don’t even feel that guilty. I know that I’ve gone over 2000 calories, but I think my body needs it today. Tomorrow I’m eating normally. Today I’m doing a lot of gardening, so I will probably burn off 400.

It wasn’t a binge though, which is weird. I totally controlled myself. I had foods I usually don’t really have, which I’ve been saving for a long time. And I think I gave my body a little “boost”. I don’t want to waste away, I want to gain some muscle!

I probably exaggerated though, now I’m quite blaoted and uncomfortable, plus I’m still on my period, so I’ll wait a little while before gardening. 

I feel a bit confused, I hope I’m doing the right thing, all I know is that I won’t be having a cheat day like this again for a LONG while.

What do you think about this? Did I go a little overboard?

Ok so I decided to give a small update, since I haven’t been posting anything recent really:

-Today I worked non-stop from 10 am until 6pm (with NO lunch break, I was eating a sandwich WHILST working) because I had to help set up a whole damn restaurant since they’re opening tonight. I mopped floors, set tables, set up decorations (which I handmade and got paid for hehe) and a bunch of other things.

-I’m leaving on Wednesday to Sweden (where I was born) for 2 weeks. That means I probably won’t be online for that time unless I find an internet cafe, but that’s unlikely since I live literally in the forest over there.

-I haven’t really been “working out” like I wanted to. I was planning on hardcore swimming, hardcore brisk walking, hardcore calisthenics and hardcore stretching, but I haven’t really had time for it! Instead I’ve been hardcore gardening and working partly in restaurants —’

-Today I had a massive breakfast (like 700 cals ZOMG) before I left for work, but then the restaurant owner actually offered (well she practically MADE me eat) a very cheesy giant toast, which must have come out to about 700 calories, and I was so stuffed that when I came home I just had 1/2 a papaya and a tomato salad. 

Needless to say, I’m exhausted. But I got mah moneh!

Ok I know that everyone has a weakness. I used to have LOADS of weaknesses, ALL of these: pizza, muffins, chocolate, nutella, any cake, biscuits ETC. Now, I control those weaknesses properly.

BUT I still have ONE MAJOR WEAKNESS. Cheese. Damn you, cheese. Especially Brie.

Anyone else still have annoying weaknesses?

Sooo I wanted to know what all my fellow fitness and healthy eating blogs thought about Intermittent Fasting? More to the point, not eating for 24 hours once or twice a week?

Also, can I talk to somebody? I need like lots of advice on a few things and I feel kinda retarded lol.

A few little things:

-I have officially reached 300 followers! 

- For the first time in weeks it’s cloudy and below 25ºC in Portugal

- University of East Anglia are actually considering me to study Ecology, they even phoned and e-mailed for copies of my results which is more than anyone else has asked for. If that doesn’t work out, I guess I’m studying in Portugal afterall.

- I haven’t done much working out AT ALL. I feel bad, it’s been a week since I jogged properly and did REALLY strenuous stuff, and almost a week since I did PROPER calisthenics and stuff. So far I’ve been doing a few hours a day of just housework and gardening, I dunno if that’s enough to stay toned any more! All I know is that when I get to Uni, I’ll definitely get my act together, do some intermittent fasting and do some proper weight lifting and some cardio. Until then I think maybe I should just relax for once, since I’m not very good at relaxing! Bah, it’s not as if I’m overweight, on the contrary, but I still like to stay fit, maybe that’s why I’m feeling a bit guilty, lol.

Yeah I haven’t updated much about anything lately.

 My period is about to start so I’m all grouchy bloated and have weird energy swings.

I’ve been working around the house all day. First I mowed the lawn, then picked all the figs from a massive tree which took forever, then swept around the whole house (twice, morning and night) helped with cooking a lot, did a tiny bit of garden digging, and went for a 30 minute brisk walk.

I then forced myself to do a 1 minute plank, some crunches and squats, and stretched my body.

Believe me, I was NOT in the mood for all that, but I did it anyway.

*SIGH*

Maybe it’s because I’m like 3 days away from my period, but today I’ve worked in the garden for 2 hours (not straight, 1 hour each time) and that included digging in a ditch, well, clearing the ditch so that irrigation pipes can be installed and such, so that also includes walking around with a wheelbarrow and chucking out dirt.

So I did one hour in the morning. I had lunch. First, healthy, some chicken and rice with lettuce. Then a small amount of homemade chocolate mousse. BUT THEN I had a BIG SLICE of friggin walnut/muesli cake pie thing, which had like 500 calories in it, no joke.

Altogether, my intake today ALREADY is 1700 cals, about. But I dunno if I’m burnt off a lot from gardening, I can’t tell. It doesn’t FEEL like it.

Lol I always tell followers to have a little bit of what they crave and never binge and never starve, and look at me, I go and practically eat a whole pie. Tonight I have to plan a mega-healthy-low-calorie dinner. Seriously.