Seriously, I don’t know. I’m at my UGW, 50kg, about 110 lbs, and… it feels good. I still watch what I eat, but I also have treats, often, they’re always homemade. Like, today I had an icecream scoop with homemade fruit sauce after lunch, and a homemade fresh fig pie slice after dinner. Sure, I walked for about an hour, and biked for 30 minutes and swam for 15, but still, I indulge.

I guess what I’m saying is… don’t fret. Getting to your UGW is possible even with indulgences, just in absolute moderation. I didn’t eat the whole pie, I had a small slice. I didn’t have 10 scoops of icecream, just one small one. Same goes for normal meals.

Believe in yourself. I did, and… it worked!

TO WHOEVER BOTHERS READING MASSIVE TESTAMENTS LIKE THIS:

Ok so today is officially my last day in Portugal (for the next 2 weeks). Don’t worry, I will be back, fo sho. I just need a media break, where I’m going there is just forest and forest with bilberry picking, and plenty of mushrooms, raspberries, strawberries and other things to be picked, as well as hiking and exploring stuff.

I really need this holiday. I need a break from society, to be honest. But when I come back, I’ll be the healthiest (both mentally and physically) that I will ever be, so expect some awesomeness to come out of this blog in two weeks *pretends I’m da bosss*

Oh, and a tip to all those who get constipated *AHEM* whilst travelling: Bring All Bran cereal (you know, those Fiber One stick cereal type of cereals) with you and munch on it, because whenever I travel, I get stoppage for DAYS.

Also, an update of Portugal: It’s effing hot here right now. Literally, there’s a heatwave. When I open the door, I get a wave of hot air in my face, and standing around in the sun makes you dizzy in literally 5 minutes. People on the beach right now are really stupid. This is what they teach us at frigging school, never stay outdoors in really hot weather and/or high UV levels (which are high right now). But NAAAH, the tourists won’t listen.

And guess what, I had the biggest lunch I’ve ever had. First, it was a small portion of spaghetti with homemade tomato sauce, but then it was cheese and crackers and an icecream cone and some fruit. And yall know I’m a sucker for cheese. (We are having guests over so my mum made a mini buffet thing). So just lunch totaled out to about 1500 cals, no joke. But I’m not freaking out. I’m so FULL right now, I can probably only fit in a light salad for dinner, plus I’m taking my dog for one last long brisk walk/jog, since the dog will be staying here in Portugal with our house-sitters.

That is all for now. Today is the last chance to ask random questions, by the way!

Today was a pretty good day! 

I’ve been quite busy lately, started packing already since I’m leaving on Wednesday, and done a lot of housework too. (I vacuumed, ironed, mopped and cleared the house today)

Just thought I’d share my food intake today:

Breakfast

-Fried egg on toast with ketchup and marmite, followed by a crispbread with Brie cheese (I’m a sucker for Brie) (~500)

Lunch

-Meatloaf leftovers with roast potato pieces and salad (~500) followed by icecream (~120) and then lots of grapes (~100) and 2 plums (~40)

Dinner

-Baked mackerel with beetroot salad greek yoghurt and a crispbread (~500) followed by a natural yoghurt (~66)

I also half jogged/brisk walked my dog for 30 minutes and swept around the house.

I don’t know or care if today was a maintenance day, I’m too tired and excited at the same time to care!

So I decided to have a cheat day. Mainly because I’ve been mysteriously losing weight, which is almost scaring me now. Like, I was 52 kg, which I thought was just perfect, then I went down to 51 kg, which was ok, but recently for the past 4 days I’ve been around 50 kg (that’s 110 pounds), which “apparently” is underweight. 51 is the minimum.

So my breakfast was normal, Fiber One cereal with some porridge and a slice of papaya. 

Then I had lunch, tiny bit of meatloaf, lots of steamed veggies and a roast potato. 

Then came the cheat meal:

-a gigantic serving of strawberries with 2 scoops of vanilla icecream and lots of chocolate sauce

-2 caramel filled chocolate squares + 1 “fluffy” chocolate square

-2 mini pastry thingies

-1 small slice of coconut/chocolate cake

-LOTS of figs (like, 10-15 fresh off the tree)

All in all, I think that’s enough for today. I don’t even feel that guilty. I know that I’ve gone over 2000 calories, but I think my body needs it today. Tomorrow I’m eating normally. Today I’m doing a lot of gardening, so I will probably burn off 400.

It wasn’t a binge though, which is weird. I totally controlled myself. I had foods I usually don’t really have, which I’ve been saving for a long time. And I think I gave my body a little “boost”. I don’t want to waste away, I want to gain some muscle!

I probably exaggerated though, now I’m quite blaoted and uncomfortable, plus I’m still on my period, so I’ll wait a little while before gardening. 

I feel a bit confused, I hope I’m doing the right thing, all I know is that I won’t be having a cheat day like this again for a LONG while.

What do you think about this? Did I go a little overboard?

Ok I know that everyone has a weakness. I used to have LOADS of weaknesses, ALL of these: pizza, muffins, chocolate, nutella, any cake, biscuits ETC. Now, I control those weaknesses properly.

BUT I still have ONE MAJOR WEAKNESS. Cheese. Damn you, cheese. Especially Brie.

Anyone else still have annoying weaknesses?

Sooo I wanted to know what all my fellow fitness and healthy eating blogs thought about Intermittent Fasting? More to the point, not eating for 24 hours once or twice a week?

Also, can I talk to somebody? I need like lots of advice on a few things and I feel kinda retarded lol.

A few little things:

-I have officially reached 300 followers! 

- For the first time in weeks it’s cloudy and below 25ºC in Portugal

- University of East Anglia are actually considering me to study Ecology, they even phoned and e-mailed for copies of my results which is more than anyone else has asked for. If that doesn’t work out, I guess I’m studying in Portugal afterall.

- I haven’t done much working out AT ALL. I feel bad, it’s been a week since I jogged properly and did REALLY strenuous stuff, and almost a week since I did PROPER calisthenics and stuff. So far I’ve been doing a few hours a day of just housework and gardening, I dunno if that’s enough to stay toned any more! All I know is that when I get to Uni, I’ll definitely get my act together, do some intermittent fasting and do some proper weight lifting and some cardio. Until then I think maybe I should just relax for once, since I’m not very good at relaxing! Bah, it’s not as if I’m overweight, on the contrary, but I still like to stay fit, maybe that’s why I’m feeling a bit guilty, lol.

Maybe it’s because I’m like 3 days away from my period, but today I’ve worked in the garden for 2 hours (not straight, 1 hour each time) and that included digging in a ditch, well, clearing the ditch so that irrigation pipes can be installed and such, so that also includes walking around with a wheelbarrow and chucking out dirt.

So I did one hour in the morning. I had lunch. First, healthy, some chicken and rice with lettuce. Then a small amount of homemade chocolate mousse. BUT THEN I had a BIG SLICE of friggin walnut/muesli cake pie thing, which had like 500 calories in it, no joke.

Altogether, my intake today ALREADY is 1700 cals, about. But I dunno if I’m burnt off a lot from gardening, I can’t tell. It doesn’t FEEL like it.

Lol I always tell followers to have a little bit of what they crave and never binge and never starve, and look at me, I go and practically eat a whole pie. Tonight I have to plan a mega-healthy-low-calorie dinner. Seriously.

DIETS DON’T FUCKING WORK.

What? Oh but you lost 5000 pounds by doing the “skinny-mofo-eat-dust” diet? Dudette, good for you, BUT you’re either gonna gain it all back or lead a really strict life being miserable because you’re trying to stick to a diet and not gain the weight back. 

Diets just lead you into a circle of restrict-splurge. Honestly. 

This is a life lesson my parents taught me and that I live by: Moderation is key. This applies for everything folks. Be it food, exercise, studying, social life, everything.

In this case, you’ve GOT to allow yourself to have that muffin. But, just have half of it, and give the rest to your brother/sister/dog/cat/goblin. Seriously.

You don’t have to deny your favorite foods, you’re just going to make fat-loss a friggin nightmare.

What yall got to say?

Ok I really need some answers, SOMETHING. Yes, I like NEVER ever post personal stuff, but I have to now.

I’m a total healthy weight. I still watch what I eat, and I do exercise almost everyday (usually 1 hour gardening, an hour walking, and bits and bobs)

BUT TODAY I TOTALLY FELL OFF THE BANDWAGON. I feel so bad guys, I really need some answers or replies or any help before I explode and just, kill myself or something.

Here’s the thing, I binged majorly today and FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, I couldn’t say NO to myself. I usually start binging, then I stop myself. This time, it went like this:

-3 plums

-baked beans on toast

-2 yoghurt cups (up till now it was meant to be dinner, and that’s it! But I carried on)

-1 peach

-2 brownies

-2 chocolate squares followed by a handful of gummy bears

-handful raisins

-like 40 peanuts

-3 tablespoons of nutella and 1 tablespoon of peanut butter

-3 handfuls of muesli

-1 and a half cups of chocolate milk (with a TON of chocolate powder in it)

And the reason I stopped here is because I’m just about to explode, my stomach is huge.

Help me I’m so hysterical right now, I’m afraid I’ve just destroyed everything I don’t even want to COUNT the calories, FUCKFUCKFUCK WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK is wrong with me???